What's new chaps?

So,

A year plus has passed since my last post and a lot has changed. I'm not longer with Sarah A.K.A. Say. I'm now 21 years old and living in Thompsonville, a sub-section of Enfield -so not far from Somers, my old town.- I live in an apartment with my girlfriend Samantha. I am now unemployed and have been for nearly a year now, and it sucks. I need to find a job soon, before I drive myself crazy along with everyone around me. That's really the majority of any major developments in my life...Oh I no longer go to Asnuntuck either, I managed to fuck that up too, I'm on a roll. In terms of minor differences in my life, I now have 6 tattoos and 10 piercings. My tattoos include: My cards on my wrists, Mjolnir on my arm, Kismet/Destiny ambigram on my forearm, music star pentigram on my chest and half of a zelda heart contain on my arm (Sam having the other half).  As for piercings, my lobes are now 9/16th, I have 2 eyebrow piercings, 2 nostril piercings, a 12g soon to be 10g labret, both nipples, and tragus.


    So far this year has been pretty hectic but I know it will pick up. I wouldn't quite say I'm "depressed" but I'm definitely unhappy with a fair share of aspects in my life. In fact it seems the only good things running for me are my girlfriend, my dog and my living space. Other than that, things have gone to shit. I have very few magic cards left, not even a full deck. But such trivial things matter not to me anymore. I have more important things to focus my time on, living with Sam being on of them. Bills and my girlfriend are my obvious focus on life right now.

   this past summer was interesting...in so many ways. I would love to write about it but there are some things I like to keep to myself. Let's just say I burnt a lot of bridges and built even more new ones. My friend group in almost all aspects is different now. I also gained a pretty hate filled reputation and broke a few hearts on my path, but whatever it's not about the hearts you break it's about the one I fixed. Well, two that were fixed, her's and mine.

I Wake up`

I wake up, screaming and crying while my mother slowly rocks me back to sleep.

I wake up, grab my blanket as I innocently enjoy consumerism before I can even spell the word.

I wake up, throw on my clothes and enter the yellow hellish vehicle that will change my life forever.

I wake up, find my baseball gear and rush outside to play. -father no where in sight-

I wake up, sneak a cigarette before school.

I wake up, back onto the hellish yellow vehicle, who's that?

I wake up, she's gorgeous.

I wake up, yellow hellish vehicle again, we speak.

I wake up, bruised bones, bleeding nose, blood shot eyes.

I wake up, she's amazing.

I wake up, guess not.

I wake up, grab the pistol and blow my fucking brains out, I wake up.

I wake up, day with my friend...There she is! The girl from the yellow hellish vehicle, still gorgeous.

I wake up, she's taken.

I wake up, we fuck.

I wake up, she's finally mine.

Blog reboot

Well then, now that I have advanced a year plus in my life without posting more to this blog. I decided it's time for a reboot. To anyone who for some reason did not know, the women formerly mentioned in my blogs (Sarah) is no longer a part of my life. As usual being dumb and in love and then writing about perfection led to nothing but deception...Go figure. Well, I'm going to try to put more of my writing on this blog, as dark and fucked up and raw as some of it may be. this is where I'll be storing any and all of my writing....So enjoy!

P.S. I do have a new girlfriend, we have been happily together for over 7 months now and I will probably publish more sappy gay shit on here about her.  Forewarning.